Today is cloudy, I figured it out when I stepped out of my apartment, was hoping to get some rain to make the day even messy. But the sky still full of clouds so far, no signal for raining or sunshine.

The first working day after Independence Day, when I was sleeping at the fireworks time by Macy that night.

Sleepy, bored as usual, I find myself wasting the time, and feel dead in this cold office, looking at the screen with an empty mind.

Sent an email to the company that I finished my last interview two weeks ago, and still no response. Gosh, you are paying me so little and still trying to turn me off? Yes yes I do care cuz I cannot find a better job, the economy really sucks and I am so hopeless.

I don't know where I am, and seems this blog is deserted, each time I just put some quotes of other sources here and wtf, I am totally disappeared from the world and nobody even bother asking, except the Tony, leaving message on each of my blogs although he doesn't know what the hell I was writing. OOOOh Tony my best friend I love you, hope your life happy in Beijing dealing with all the bitches and assholes.

I found the Gmail has an interesting function that I can log into my AIM, so I tried to remember my account info then got online. Get to know more friends online but what the hell, they all know each other! Everyday I tell myself how small the world is, but still it is even smaller than I thought.

Wugui from Kongfu Panda says:"Yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery, and today is a gift, that is why we call it present". Seems lot guys love this quote, at least Hideson wrote this on his blog as an ending. But what the hell is my today? I hate complaining but I wanna go home, I better stay in bed playing video games rather than wasting my precious time here. But I have to stay here, cuz I need the money, although so slim only to cover my summer rent, I have to, wtf.

Guess I need a cup of coffee now, the bitch said I need to loose weight in the club, I think he is right, and I need to, so I had a piece of cake for breakfast and a small bowl of cereal for lunch, and I don't even feel hungry so far.

Anyway, I need a bold one, and then waiting for the time to go home....

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布衣一尺剑，天下共肃然 杨佳，北京人，28岁，中专毕业，无业游民 1、杨佳父亲提供的杨佳情况 杨佳14岁时父母离异，和母亲一起生活 杨佳性格孤僻不合群 杨佳喜爱读书 杨佳从小品行端正从未有过偷盗行为 杨佳有正义感，会指责父亲随地乱丢烟头 杨佳从小到大没打过架 2、杨佳邻居提供的情况 杨佳性格孤僻，看起来很凶。 母子均很少出门，跟邻居关系并不好，与很多邻居发生过摩擦。 可以看到杨佳除了“性格孤僻，看起来很凶”之外，从小到大没有什么劣行，也没有任何违法乱纪的行为。那么杨佳是怎么走上犯罪道路的呢？ 据各大报纸媒体报道上海警方透露杨佳“几年前曾经在山西太原火车站遭到警察殴打”，后因此获赔几万元。媒体没有报道杨佳在山西太原火车站是因为什么原因遭 到警察殴打的，但是从杨佳获得几万元的赔偿来看警察殴打杨佳的行为肯定在法律上是有过错的，从这次“遭到警察殴打”开始杨佳心中埋下了一颗仇视警察的种 子。 上海警方还透露杨佳去年10月赴沪游玩，租用赃车被警方以盗车罪名审查，“当时警方盘查杨佳是正当行为。”但是对待杨佳“可能是态度有些不好，杨佳产生不 满和怨恨，最终行凶”。 如果当年太原警察在执法过程中没有“殴打”杨佳，如果太原警察后来在赔偿杨佳的同时能够对杨佳做诚挚的道歉和细致的思想工作，如果上海闸北警察在审查杨佳 脏车来源的“正当行为”过程中能人性化一点，态度好一点，如果上海闸北警察在杨佳要求赔偿的时候能够依法及时给与合理公正的赔偿和道歉，或许能够排解杨佳 对警察的仇恨心理，或许今天的严重行凶犯罪行动就能够避免发生。当然这些都是媒体报道的表面现象，当然这次杨佳行凶犯罪也一定还有深层次的原因。 此案还没有最后结案，肯定其中还有一些我们未知的杨佳犯罪动机和原因，比如杨佳行凶时的精神状态是否正常？警方审查杨佳过程中到底有什么“态度不好”的行 为，“态度不好”到底给杨佳造成多大的身心伤害？另外杨佳前后两次被警察“审查”然后索赔有没有必然的什么联系？比如有没有“敲诈”的性质在其中？这些目 前媒体还没有详细的报道，我们期待不久会真相大白。有媒体把杨佳的犯罪原因归罪到单亲家庭造成的，这有些太牵强，在我国单亲家庭有不计其数，难道单亲家庭 长大的孩子就一定会犯罪吗？ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 战国策《唐睢不辱使命》： 秦王气势汹汹地发怒了，对唐雎说：“您曾听说过天子发怒吗？”唐雎回答说：“我未曾听说过。”秦王说：“天子发怒，死人百万，血流千里。”唐雎说：“大王 曾经听说过平民发怒吗？”秦王说：“平民发怒，也不过是摘掉帽子赤着脚，用头撞地罢了。”唐雎说：“这是平庸无能的人发怒，不是有才能有胆识的人发怒。从 前，专诸刺杀吴王僚的时候，彗星的尾巴扫过月亮；聂政刺杀韩傀的时候，一道白光直冲上太阳；要离刺杀庆忌的时候，苍鹰扑击到宫殿上。这三个人都是出身平民 的有胆识的人，心里的愤怒还没发作出来，上天就降示征兆，（现在，专诸、聂政、要离）连上我，将成为四个人了。如果有才能有胆识的人要发怒，就要让两个人 的尸体倒下，血流五步远，全国人民都要穿丧服，今天就是这样。”（于是）拔出宝剑站起来。 秦王变了脸色，长跪着向唐雎道歉：“先生请坐！怎么会到这种（地步）！我明白了：韩国、魏国灭亡，而安陵国却凭借五十里的土地幸存下来的原因，只是因为有先生啊。”

2008年的盛夏，七月流火，繁星满天，在祖国浩瀚的江河土地上，我们每个人都在享受和平的安宁和自己生命之旅的展开，我们伟大的祖国在2008年已经经 历了如此之多的不平凡后，我们内心已经宁静，即将到来的北京奥运会，将成为中国人民历史上最大的一场华年盛事。今天的中国，尽管还不是万事如人之意，但已 经是中国人所有历史中最美好的时代，是真正的人民共和国盛世。而生活在这个中国历史上最和平、最进步和最伟大的年代，你想过我们今天这一切的来源吗？如果 你没有，就让我们一起在即将到来的七月七日中国人民抗日战争纪念日这一天，一起冥想，为无数在抗日战争中牺牲的先烈献上一缕馨香！　

A whole year has passed, it is really hard to believe, and now I find myself sitting in a office in Greenwich reading the CFA materials again. Such dramatic circle yet full of unexpectation year by year, that makes the life, and makes the human beings.

When I read the forum again, I realized another June 4th has just passed. It was like yesterday when I was writing the essay for those Tian'anmen square mothers, for their tears, and for the sorrow of Chinese people. I understand the sadness of the mothers, because my mom loves me so much; and I understand those students passed by in that horrible night, because I am also a student; I understand the behaviors so far that happened in the far east land, because I was born from that land. Far or close, I can never dissociate myself from that land I love, no matter how many continents or oceans I have to cover in order to see her again.

The tragedy 19 years ago was buried deep in everybody's heart. People never forget it, but choose not to mention it carefully. I still remember the first time I went to Beijing, mom took me to that Muxi Bridge that I mentioned in my blog last year in this day. Kid as I am cannot understand what happened, until decades have passed. I still remember the first time when I saw those videos how sad and angry I was, full of tears, full of anger, and full of sorrow.

Nobody can forget the helpless young man standing before a whole team of tank, the proudly standing white democracy status, and the bloody fired square in the dark night. We didn't forget, and we are keep going with their bloods .....

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